Random Thoughts on Trust

What is it about trust that leaves us as people so bruised once it's broken. We have the habit of sharing what is on our minds. Our thoughts, Our ideas and most dangerously our secrets with those who we believe we can trust. The truth of the matter is, When is it ever really a secret?   Humans we are and we love to share what we've heard and then Give our little opinion or add some advice, even when it is not requested. Truth be told, Even those we trust share what we have told them in the most confidence to those they trust and the cycle continues.  And so the story Grows. I guess the question is can we really trust? Or am I trustworthy for others to trust. ******* What is Trust?  Definition:1. Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing. 2. Custody; care. 3. Something committed into the care of another; charge.******** It brings me to the point that i'm not always open to let people in. Because i, (and I'm sure many of you) have been betrayed by some who i thought had my back only to find that they were behind my back sharing what i have shared and their opinions on who i am. What we say about others always comes back to the one we speak of  ;-). I've always been of the mindset that living life based on what others think will have you locked in a cage of insecurity. It will have you stuck without an opinion. I take my time to truly get to know the people i let into my world now, its a very small world for those who truly know me. My world is often under construction and renovation and even then i'm hesitant so I take my time because you bare the risk of being exposed no matter what. You bare the risk of being misinterpreted no matter what. Its a risk to trust. A risk that should seem worth it when you love.----------------------------------------------  I think sometimes that's why we find it so hard as Humans To Trust God when He has Clearly been there every step of the way. We look at what has been done to us in Human form and then somehow become hesitant to the Author of life. So we hide away from Him our flaws, as if He doesn't already know, afraid of what He might think or say. We walk in shame forgetting that He wrote the story and knows the ending. The problem is... We don't know... the ending. So we waiver and are afraid to truly Trust that it Will work out for our good. We forget His faithfulness and  so we forget how to trust!  -------------------------------------------------- I walk away from This with questions to myself.... Really searching and checking my heart. Am i truly trustworthy, and in my attempts to be human how many have I betrayed.... Even when i thought it was for good of them... Forget those who have betrayed me and sweep around my own front door! I remember as kids we swore to secrecy and kept our promise. We didn't even think twice. As Adults we just say a lot and I personally am challenged today. Challenged to rethink my stance and go back to the innocence of being a faithful friend, a faithful human. ----------------------------------------I'm challenged constantly in my imperfection! I guess that's what being human is about... We All have Flaws... Trust!!!