I haven't written in a while. I've been doing a lot of listening and thinking and in the meantime i've dealt with some loss.
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When you lose something it can inconvenience you, irritate you, frustrate you. You think to yourself I just had it... where did it go... how will i find it.... For a few seconds everything stops and goes a little crazy. Like losing your keys. Instantly there is a scurry through your purse, then you search the couch you last sat on and then you retrace your steps only to find it next to the refrigerator where you last had a drink, then your phone rang so you put it down. I Lost my ipod. I know its just an ipod but it was really special to me, 160GB, it had approximately 300 days of listening on it. My entire music collection including the ones i had collected along the way. Those that were on my computer and those that were not. I was a little lost without it for a minute. we had a special bond, You'd always find me with my headphones in my ears bobbing my head. Away in my own world, it made me happy!!! But losing my ipod a year ago helped me to open my ears, I was so closed off that I would miss out on good conversations and moments just being in my little world so i guess i had to learn from my loss.
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Losing an item cannot compare to Losing someone you Love. The Inconvenience, frustration, irritation can't come close to the reality that they will never be back... An item can so easily be replaced as i have done with my ipod, but a person.... I was recently scammed with the whole Visa Lottery thing, I was so excited at the thought of winning it, when i found out that it was a scam i was sad but my reality got checked quickly when i realized that someone had just lost their dad. So there was no time to be pitiful about something i could change or fix. In that moment as much as i wanted to be irritated or angry i had to focus on saying goodbye to someone i loved and respected. I Recently lost My Aunty Dolly who was very dear to me. She was a Queen! Her life made such an impact on me and my family for so many reasons! My heart was saddened by her going to rest but her life will forever be Alive because of the way she lived it..... Her garden was Perfect. In bloom at all seasons because she worked in it daily. She always wore her dress with stockings and all even to cut the grass. She was truly Royalty the way she conducted herself, Soft spoken and Kind. She Loved others dearly. She cared for others deeply.
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As i say goodbye to her and the others who have gone to their resting place i search myself to check where i am at. What are people saying about me now and what will they say in the future. Not that it always matters but what will my my children say about me one day?
_________________________________________________________________________________Like a tree being pruned to its perfect shape, i choose to work on my garden a little more!
Rest in Peace Aunty Dolly.
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When you lose something it can inconvenience you, irritate you, frustrate you. You think to yourself I just had it... where did it go... how will i find it.... For a few seconds everything stops and goes a little crazy. Like losing your keys. Instantly there is a scurry through your purse, then you search the couch you last sat on and then you retrace your steps only to find it next to the refrigerator where you last had a drink, then your phone rang so you put it down. I Lost my ipod. I know its just an ipod but it was really special to me, 160GB, it had approximately 300 days of listening on it. My entire music collection including the ones i had collected along the way. Those that were on my computer and those that were not. I was a little lost without it for a minute. we had a special bond, You'd always find me with my headphones in my ears bobbing my head. Away in my own world, it made me happy!!! But losing my ipod a year ago helped me to open my ears, I was so closed off that I would miss out on good conversations and moments just being in my little world so i guess i had to learn from my loss.
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Losing an item cannot compare to Losing someone you Love. The Inconvenience, frustration, irritation can't come close to the reality that they will never be back... An item can so easily be replaced as i have done with my ipod, but a person.... I was recently scammed with the whole Visa Lottery thing, I was so excited at the thought of winning it, when i found out that it was a scam i was sad but my reality got checked quickly when i realized that someone had just lost their dad. So there was no time to be pitiful about something i could change or fix. In that moment as much as i wanted to be irritated or angry i had to focus on saying goodbye to someone i loved and respected. I Recently lost My Aunty Dolly who was very dear to me. She was a Queen! Her life made such an impact on me and my family for so many reasons! My heart was saddened by her going to rest but her life will forever be Alive because of the way she lived it..... Her garden was Perfect. In bloom at all seasons because she worked in it daily. She always wore her dress with stockings and all even to cut the grass. She was truly Royalty the way she conducted herself, Soft spoken and Kind. She Loved others dearly. She cared for others deeply.
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As i say goodbye to her and the others who have gone to their resting place i search myself to check where i am at. What are people saying about me now and what will they say in the future. Not that it always matters but what will my my children say about me one day?
_________________________________________________________________________________Like a tree being pruned to its perfect shape, i choose to work on my garden a little more!
Rest in Peace Aunty Dolly.
